Life

A lot has been happening around me lately that is challenging the way I think about my life. I recently found out that a high school classmate lost her battle with breast cancer. I didn't know her, but several comments left on the posting make it clear that she had an affect on other people during her brief time on this earth. Then I randomly clicked on a link in facebook to discover another young women is battling cancer. I don't know her directly but her father in law used to be my pastor. I read some of her blog and it is apparent that she is confidently trusting God in the situation. Moments like this grab my attention. I think "what if?" I could wake up one day and have an illness that could completely change everything. I am confronted with self evaluation and wonder how I might handle a similiar prognosis. The older I get the more I am becoming aware of my own mortality. Anything could happen at any given time. I suppose that I am comforted by the fact that I have assurance of where I'm going. Nevertheless, sometimes I get lost in the "what if that was me" question. I have discovered that I like to have answers, but the reality is that not everything in life has an answer. Some things are meant to be a mystery. I find myself welling up with tears for the families that lose their loved ones so early. At least in my mind when someone dies without living a long life it seems so sad. Maybe my viewpoint is all wrong. I have heard it said that if we truly understood heaven, then people would be jumping off buildings to get there. I don't know about that. I also read someones quote (sorry, can't remember who) that said "if you are still alive then you know that God isn't done with you yet." So I suppose that life can be a mystery. Live each day, be your best, God will take care of the rest.